Assalamualaikum everyone! Weh ocannye holiday niii hahahaha. It has been almost a month since the holiday started and still jobless hahaha. I feel stupid, useless, and fat-ting ya Allahhh. Dah pergi round Seremban dah cari kerja and left my phone number around. Alhamdulillah ada satu kedai dah call but now still waiting for the interview hmm. Harap harap dapat lah cause now Im very broke tak tau nak buat apa takde duit ni hahaha. So now still duduk rumah je, belajar jadi isteri mithali and perhaps a better woman hehe. Nak main game, tak minat, nak baca buku pun tak minat. Nak buat apa pun tak tau. Mata makin kabur asyik mengadap laptop and phone. Cik abang has his own life ada anak sedara nak jaga ada game nak layan ala ala ala ala Im so boring lah hm. I wish I can be his game and Ichan. Its okay I can try to be independent, Im a big girl lah haha. I wish I am a sleeper who can sleeps all day long. I wish I will have many work to do so that I wont be as pathetic as now haha. Still thinking what Ill be doing this break. Cepat cepatlah dapat kerja ya Allah I need money, I need to stop burdening my parents by stop asking money and whatsoever haha. Kadang kadang rasa nak baling je phone ni making me so frustrated waiting for people to whatsapp and layaning me every second. But I know I wont get it so I better stop imagining that haha. What to do, I am overly attached and so manja and an attention seeker haha. I miss to study back going back to Dengkil making my life busy back without even hardly care about people around me and just my books and I. UGGHHH SO BOSAN MAKING ME VERY EMOTIONALLLL HAHAHA. Just cut the crap lah kan haha. Im ridiculous. Banyak benefits actually that I learned  many new recipes from my mom how to cook kampung food and kuih, trying new hobbies, watching English movies which I used to hate before, getting plenty of rest for myself, though too many sleep making me so lazy and useless ughh. Okay so basically what Im trying to state here is I wanted a job so badly  that I can use my time wiser while looking for my own money, okay till here byebye :)