Assalamualaikum :) Hello! That's been a lot of stories to be expressed. But erm. I guess, I should just keep them by myself. Hahahaha. Hmm life's now getting tougher and tougher. Harder and harder. More complicated. Yup. Very complicated. Me myself can't go through them alone. But yeah. I think I must go through them by myself lah. No other choice, aite? So, how's life after this? I don't know. Nervous conquers me all the time. Actually, I am waiting for something. I mean, one thing. SBP results. I did send an appeal to Seseri. And I have a thought. In my current condition, I think that I have to go. If Allah wills. I really feel that I need to go far. And out from all these social networks. And yet focus to my study. I should do that. For real. I am scared for my SPM. I am disturbed by all these stupid thoughts and feelings that just can distract my emotions. Damn. That caused me to be such a lazy student. Seriously telling, I have to change this. I have to do something with these matters. Well, everyone is playing their parts. I mean, yeah, they are such a good actors and actresses. I don't mind. But I will start to care if that thing is messing up with my life. And, it is. I should settle up. Yeah. I will do something. Just wait and see. Me myself can't really stand about all these distracting matters. It kills me, dude. Really telling. I am hurt. But you never care. Errgghh. Tensed up. Stressed up. In fact, the hardest thing to do now is, focus. Simple thing, but can't be done by a student like me. Hmm that's right. Smiling is the biggest weapon right. I will just smile outside. Without telling anyone about the true 'inside of me'. Let them be. Ignorance is the best way, I think. Insyaallah. Allah plans the best for me. I will just follow and keep calm. Accepting all my fate. Ok ok. So, pray the best for me. For my SBP results. And for my coming lifestyle too. Till here guys. Bye. Assalamualaikum :')