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Syahirah.

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Syahirah, 21, Cairo University


The End Of Us .



Hey . Errmmm , this is me . Who always think of ‘us’ . Well , what is actually ‘us’ in your opinion ? Does the word ‘us’ exist in your life ? I mean , is there any ‘you and me’ in your mind ? I bet , NO . Right ? But , hey , I don’t know why the word exists in my mind . In fact , I tried for many times to forget it . Since you seem don’t care about me . Okay , listen . At first I don’t mind if you ignore me . Cause I already get used of it . Maybe we are really not meant to be . But , look , I really hate it when you appear in my mind . And forced me to think of you . I don’t like it seriously . Cause I am jealous . I am hurt . I am annoyed everytime I saw somebody else with you . Oh damn shit , I can’t take it . Really , I hate it . I myself don’t want this stupid feeling in fact . I know you are not mine . But that just it . I can’t lie to myself that I stop care about you . NO , okay . I can’t do that . People around me keep telling me to stop thinking about you . Stop talking about you . But you just make me love to brag about you . And guess what ? When there is a bloodihead bitch starts to flirt with you , woooaww . That is really out of the box . I feel like kicking her face with my thorny shoes . Pulling her nose and step it . Slapping and spit her on her face . It is damn annoying seriously . I intend to stop stalk about you and her . But , I don’t know why . I can’t . Sometimes I feel like she is the one who always disturb you by doing this and that . But , sometimes I feel like you are responding to her too .
Why ? Why you do this to me ?
A question which always comes in my brain …

‘Are you both a couple?'
 I mean , is she your new ‘someone’ ? If not , I want to know . Have you found someone better than me ? I know , I am ‘nothing’ . So , have you found ‘something’? Who cares about you ? Who you can always meet regularly ? Who always there when you need her ? Who always entertain you when you are sad ? Who always make you smile ? Who understands you ? Have you found her ? Have you ?

Ohh , why I can’t ask these questions straight to you ? Honestly , I am sad . Cause I am hurt . Hurt by her words . Hurt by your words . Which always make me lost control . But , as long as I can stand alone , I am okay . I don’t mind if she is really your soulmate . I will try to accept it . But it will take some time . To forget you , will be quite tough . But I will try . If she is the best partner for you . If she is better than me , it’s alright . Your decision . I respect it . Anything . As long as you are happy …..